lifeguɑrding . . ♡

first of all -- hashtags? really polyvore.
tags - like instagram and now hashtags like twitter. okay.
 

 
anyways, i know i haven't been on lately, or at all actually for the past couple of weeks but that would be because of exams. i just finished with my ap exams, sooooo yeah. i have been studying like a freak for the past couple of weeks. no lie.
 

 
so the vampire diaries season finale. heads up now, don't read this if you haven't seen it -- spoiler alerts below.
 

jeremy gilbert is my all time favorite character on the show, just barely above damon. he's a fave, but jeremy exceeds him by a hair. but he does, so. and when he was killed, i swore off vampire diaries until my friend told me that i have to watch the next episodes. i'm glad i did.
 
JEREMY GILBERT IS FREAKIN ALIVE. HE IS OKAY AND HE IS ALIVE. his heart is beating and he's alive.
 
i'm so happy with that right there. tvd has been disappointing me lately but that moment right there makes up for it all.
 
i love jeremy.
 
i wish my brother was a good brother. elena's a lucky girl. .
 

;aklsdfjlkads aelkf JEREMY ♥♥
 

and second -- delena prevails. so ha to all the beotches who said stelena would. obviously it didn't. stefan [ or stephen, honestly idgad about spelling ] is at the bottom of the lake, which i hated. why? and a dopple ganger? really. is julia and the writers running out of things to do in the show. . ugh.
 
i like stefan, but he makes me made when he's all depressed over elena and making damon feel like crap because elena chose him. katherine chose stefan. elena chose stefan in season two or three, whatever it was, season finale. now it's damon's turn for real love. don't be selfish.
 
and yes, damon met elena first. so he has dibs.
 

anyways, third -- klaroline
like dang. i love tyler and caroline, but tyler has gotten annoying and his presence lacks. so that chemistry has detracted as compared to klaus and caroline's. like geeeeez. they are soo good together. idk, i love when there's something between two characters but they aren't together. i like the chase. once they are there, it's boring. which is what happened with the whole loving tyler and caroline.
 

 

 
bonnie's dead though. and katherine's human. did. not. see. that. one. oh well, they both annoyed me anyways. and i hate seeing nina dobrev play katherine. she's good but its doesn't work for her. i don't like evil on nina.
 

JEREMYJYYELrkdj;flkd fad is back. a;lkdsfj;alkejf;lkaejwlkjf;alkdjsflajdsf ♥♥♥
 
i love him so much.
him & lucas scott -- favorites of alll freaking time.

season seven. . lucas & peyton are gone. whenever i'm watching and anybody makes a reference to them, my heart hurts. i don't think i world understands how much i love those two character. favorites. ever. and lucas is my dream husband. every quality that is instilled in his heart, must be in my husband's to be my husband.
 
i miss peyton & brooke's best friend relationship. peyton can't just pick up & leave. . what was the real reason peyton left?
 
i loved the forties episode. they all went back in time some weird way. . & peyton was shot. that was my all time favorite episode. it beats everything. the way oth director films it is a genius. episodes are always filmed so differently. there's a consistency, yet a variation in all episodes.
 
after peyton & lucas left i couldn't find a reason to continue watching the show. . until i realized clay and quinn were gonna be clay & quinn. i know the writers were just trying to create that kind of a love connection thing to keep the viewers since you know, peyton and lucas are gone. we barely even knew sawyer. . anways, clay & quinn served that purpose. some might say, they " replaced " lucas & peyton.
 
no they didn't.
 
but i love them. i love clay's character. he's soo energetic and a freakin weirdo, but he's deep at times. it's mind blowing. i just love him. and right now netflix isn't working, so like idkwhattodowithlife.
 
oth finds the cutest children though. don't deny that.
 
and why couldn't peyton come back too when lucas does? i don't think that's fair. . she's perfection. i've basically ruined the show for myself. i know all about logan, brooke & the red door, nathan " disappearing, " etc. . all the good shocker scenes, i've seen them. know all about them. . and sara's evil twin? really though? did they really just run out of things to do on the show. some things get a bit unrealistic, but whatever. i still love the show.
 
i love it. at first i was taking my time to watch it, not i don't have a filter bc once i've watched all the episodes, through season nine, i can just start over. how fabulous.
 
i still miss peyton. she's my favorite character. then when she left, it was brooke. its a huge tie between those two for favorite character of the girls anyways, but peyton gets it by like .00001
 
but favorite all time character, of all. like ever. - lucas eugene scott.
 
deb annoyed me, btw.
she was a granny sl-t but i appreciate her attempts. she's a good grandma & mom.
 

- victoria / ♥

@n4ncy jugussttt ♥
 
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her infamous smirk hooked onto her lips as she allowed him to lead her in. as the heated water hit her body, august relaxed under the warmth. of course her mind was gazed from previous thoughts referring back to justin's " disappearance " from her life once the believe tour started. it made hawaii seem like two seconds. august came back into justin's life as my world tour was ending & back then, they were just friends again and it was hard. . now imagine having her boyfriend gone for months at a time. the salt and sand trickled down the spine of her back along with the water, rinsing out her body and cleansing it from the remainder of the ocean. pouring the perfect amount of justin's manly smelling shampoo into her palms to lather and massage through her locks, august's mind scattered through a million possibilities of what she could do or how she could be with justin and have him be on tour at the same time. the two were so engrossed with each other, time spent apart was living hell. she could intern for him. she was in school for business and event coordinating, as lame as it was, august wanted to be a wedding planner. she could intern for kenny, his now tour manager and assist him. . ? the brunette was desperate to tour with her love and terrified. million of beautiful girls, all around the world, parties, drinking, and fun. . what guy wouldn't? august knew to trust justin, but what girl wouldn't be a tad bit worried? after all the entire female population is after the same man - justin bieber. who also happens to be taken, twice. truly and once by her and again by selena publicly. for publicity. as though justin was reading her mind, she heard those words she was dreading aloud. they sounded worse. as justin's shampoo was being rinsed out of her hair, the brunette turned and faced him, making eye contact. her eyes were laced with concern and hope, well, an attempt at hope anyways. wrapping her arms around his neck & pulling his body towards her, under the water, august started with a tear jerking sigh. " i can come for as long as you like. " her words were sincere and loving. the brunette couldn't stand a moment without justin by her side, but it was a feeling, unfortunately, she was already prone to. " i'll be on summer vacation soon and join you, if you want. " the thought of being let out of school soon was exciting to know, and brought her strength. they would be together again. & one day they would be able to enjoy their lives together, freely. and openly. without a pest named selena gomez sucking the fun out of their love and young years.
 
idk how long or short that was.

. . you tell me its the institution. well, you know, you better free your mind instead. .
 
change is coming. & don't mix it with me being a b-tch. i'm being honest. no more sugar coating the truth.
 
- victoria / ♥

i'm always going to love justin. always.
 
but whatever that is going on in his mind right now needs to come to an end. punching his neighbor, " getting into a fight with the paps, " smoking weed, his tour bus being checked for pot, getting selena gomez tattooed on his arm, etc. the list is endless.
 
just in these past few months the year has started, justin has been accused and actually committed some of this alleged " crimes " and to be honest, i'm sick and tired of this sh-t. he needs to get his life back together. i know he's celebrity & all, he's got the money and the means; if he wants to smoke weed everyday, then there's nobody to stop him.
 
justin turning eighteen was the worst thing to happen to beliebers.
 
yes, his body is most definitely a sight for sore eyes, but this sexual appeal he's been going for lately is a bit out of control. i know he wants a more mature audience, but you can't go from singing about baby baby oh to getting caught for pot possession. you still have eight - nine year olds as fans.
 
the money & fame, to me it seems, is getting to his head. he's spending on ridiculous nonsense, wearing outrageous clothes, getting the fugliest tattoos, freely discussing certain things that should be kept to himself, showing up to concerts late. . how much more can i person look passed? it's becoming harder and harder to defend him in public. there are so many stories out there about his " misdeeds, " which some aren't even true and some that are.
 
i finally bought tickets to see him in concert, for the very first time ever. which i was crazy excited about, but now i'm seeing this wiz khalifa 2.0 & i definitely didn't pay money to see that.
 
sure he's got his fair share of charity work, but nobody sees that. nobody takes the time to read into the good of justin bieber. and lately, there's been less and less of good & more and more of bad from this kid. maybe because of the selena break up because it all seemed to happen after their break up, but that relationship seems to toxic. he needs a girl, maybe that girl is pattie, to keep him in check - to bring him back down to earth. without that control, that concrete figure, in his life, justin is completely free to do whatever the heck he wants. the drugs, the tattoos, clubs, drinking, etc. i know its normal teenager behavior, but its something not expectant of justin bieber considering his up bringing.
 
what's to blame? too much freedom, maybe? lack of pattie's presence? selena's? his new social cirlcle most likely. . ? either way, his new life style sucks & he better get his act together by august because i do not want to see him performing because all i will be able to think about is his bad.
 
btw - jelena should never ever get back together. if they were to, then only temporarily, only so justin can get his life into check.
 
i still despise the brunette tatted on his wrist. [ aka selena. & some might say its an angel. . with booooobs. ] i hate her. i hate her. i haaate her. only because of how fake and different she's become. but reasons why i hate selena is a whole new rant, which i might consider if i weren't so tired.
 
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i haven't been on in forever, because of school. and sometimes i just don't feel like it. polyvore lacks the fun it used to acquire in the earlier days. people have to grow out of it eventually. . it's been a good run guys. thx.

i'll reply to prps later. xx
 
- victoria / ♥
 
btw - taylor swift is fabulous. all my faves of hollywood are probably the most criticized people of all. justin bieber & taylor swift. he's an arrogant a$s. she's a wh0re and sleeps, or at least dates, any walking, breathing creature with a. .

" i prefer a girl with curves. " " i'd rather have curves on my body than have nothing at all. " " my big booty comes with a price - thigh gaps. " etc.
 

yes, having the perfect slender body is not necessary in life to be considered beautiful or happy, but what if that is what i want? what if having " curves " is nearly impossible for my body. . does that mean i'm ugly? or anorexic?
 
i'm not the tallest high schooler around. i'm skinny, some might say its unhealth how skinny i am, but that's a mother's point of view, i am perfectly fine. matter of fact, i work out, not to lose weight, but to better define my body. yes, i want an evident thigh gab, abs & a " bubble butt, " because later on when i'm married & have kids, i would like to enjoy my teenager body in my adulthood.
 
me working out & eating healthier people automatically assume it's because i'm wanting to lose weight. if i lose anymore weight i will be considered anorexic & that is not the plan. in today's society, i get judged on not eating the cake. and i get judged on eating the cake. i get judged because i don't like chocolate or candy. . in everybody's mind, its because she's not happy with her body.
 
the truth is, i'm not happy with my body. because i'm not happy with my health. so yes, i like to work out, get into shape. its sad that sometimes i walk up a flight of stairs at school with my friend, talking to her, and have to stop to catch my breath. that shouldn't be happening, and its because i am so unhealthy with my lifestyle.
 
with working out obviously, my body will be more defined, which includes the flat stomach, a thigh gap & a butt that is actually noticeable. & yes, that'll make my skinnier but who honestly cares about having curves. its an obvious facade people put on to reassure those slightly bigger that it's okay they are, because they know what they will do to themselves if somebody were to tell them they are fat. but hello, aren't you thinking about the other end? girls who are trying to be like skinny girls have got that reassurance, something to lean back on, something that will boost their confidence, but what about those girls who are skinny? nobody's telling me that being skinny is the new gucci.
 
that doesn't exactly boost my confidence. in actuality it lowers my self esteem to know that my body, which many girls wish to have, supposedly, is actually the worst body to have, one of the worst.
 
being skinny and wanting to be skinny is not unhealthy. and should not be such a condescending sin. having curves should not be considered model status.
 
who are you to define what a model looks like? what gives you the right to list the requirements of the perfect body?
 
as hopelessly cheesy as it sounds, the perfect body is simply a matter of opinion - whatever makes you happiest. if being skinny puts a smile on your face, then be skinny. & people shouldn't be out there judging you based off of that. if you prefer having curves, then have it but don't bring down the other half while doing so.
 
and i know what people will say, these phrases are so popular [ curves > skinny ] is because filling thoughts into those who are weak is detrimental. purposely, they will starve themselves or cut themselves because they are so unhappy with their body. ie. demi lovato.
 
but guess freaking what? stop picking which is better. having curves and having a thigh gap is equally beautiful. can we just freaking agree on that?
 

 
in my mind though, being skinnier will always be the better choice, because i am skinny. that's the only reason. i am sure that if i had curves, i would be sitting here writing the opposite.
 
and if you want to be skinnier, / not / eating food is not the answer. -- not eating junk food is. stop with the 32 oz. of coke, the endless supply of chips, candy, cake, pizza, brownies, etc. it all sounds delicious but does it really? so many carbs and fat. . its an endless supply of extra unnecessary pounds.
 
start by eating an apple instead of those chips. drink orange juice or water instead of carbonated drinks. work out, run every day, do scrunches, squats, though those are painful, push ups, etc.
 
now that's the perfect recipe for the perfect body. & tell me again why wanting to be skinny is wrong.
 
- victoria / ♥
ps. whether or not you read this, idc because for those who did, hopefully you'll fight me instead of continuing to think against me, if you were in the first place. if you weren't, then kudos to you for being a genius.

plot - he's the star of the baseball team, in training for the big leagues actually. his father happens to be his personal trainer / manager. . of time. he pushes the poor boy to work out, practice and have no social life outside of baseball. a sport he's supposed to love grows into something he has to do, like school. during one game, while his father his screaming at him to run faster, his coach chanting him on along with the fans in the stands, he looks out onto the stands for a smiling face and instead sees a beautiful brunette. it was as if everything around him had stopped and nothing else mattered. to break his trance, a herd of players were scrambling his way with their hands in the air and their eyes on the flailing ball. before he knew it, he was clobbered by the other baseball players, left with only a badly twisted ankle, causing him to keep out of the baseball fields for a while. during his hiatus, the boy takes the time to create a social life. . this is when he looks more into the brunette he locked eyes with at the field. problem is, she is his coach's daughter & he falls for her, hard. & she for him. their honeymoon phase lasts longer than any couple, because what they have is genuine and he soon realizes he's now faking his injury to continue spending time with her. but his final visit to his physical therapist declares him a healthy boy, ready to get back on the field. . but is his heart ready to leave his love. / ♡
 
@ssoundtracktomyheart
&&& i'm da justin.
 
sorry i took forever to finally get this up. . but it is now & i hope you like the plot, i can change it if you don't like something or add whatever. &&&& i think you should make the first comment on it because idk how you wanna start it & where. . i was thinking maybe after the two of them started dating and totally in love? IDK

so yeah, i want to prp with more than two people. because right now i am & one of the two is barely on. cough cough you know who i'm talking about. so it's like one person.
 
+ be descriptive.

+ be dedicated
+ we must double.
 
+ &&& you make a set, i make one.
 
+ no effing jelena.
+ lovemehbetch.
 
okay, pm me or comment if you are interested. & don't be offended if i don't reply back to you. its because i'm so freakin popular. everybody wants to talk to me. i can't reply to 03294082309842 people. so yeah.
 

 

 
i hope you picked up on my sarcasm.
if you didn't, i don't think we should prp.
 
- victoria / ♡
burb. i'm gonna go get some food. cuties are good. you should def try those baby oranges.

its @sept3mber
omg just like my poly.
 
i made it today & i really would appreciate the follow. plus, i follow back to its a guaranteed follow bck for you. aaaaand its not my personal or anything but, you'll see once you check it out.
 
pleeeease & thank you
 

- victoria / ♡
 
ps. you should either pm your username / comment it so i make sure to follow it. cause i don't wanna follow back some creep.
 
SOOOOOOOOOO FOLLOW ♡

yes. i just quoted a song from disney channel. but i can't help that the song is actually pretty good.
austin & ally / i think about you ♥
 

plot [ original ] - ` she's fearless, literally. the rush of adrenaline and anxiety derive energy for this girl to go on. she has conquered all fears, from heights, the dark, and the unknown. nothing trembles her and nothing can bring her to her knees, nothing and no one. . being a girl who accepts every challenge thrown her way, people would expect her to have faced the scariest and heart wrenching phobia of them all - love. the thing is, fears of breaking every bone in her body towers the fear of breaking her heart. she has never loved. this girl is opened minded about anything and everything expect opening her heart and soul to another. the pain of them leaving is far more painful than any broken bone or fall. &with every princess, but in this case, daredevil, comes a prince, aka her "home," her stability. and this guy is the athlete, not involved in drugs or sex, but just his sports & his secret passion - music. like anyone, he's got some skeletons hidden in his closet, actually just one - song journal. he's sincere and loving. the fact that he isn't a condescending jerk or conceited ass scares her more than anything. he's intrigued by the adrenaline junkie, her sense of adventure and fearless disposition is the hook, line and sinker. he's attached and doesn't take long for his sweetness and tender heart for fall for this girl. the thing is, he has figured out her lack of ability to love and why. of course like any dark soul, she's got dark secrets that she put a lot of energy into hidding, lots of childhood secrets. and he is determined to get her to conquer the greatest fear of all - love. she / will / be his, he / will / be there to catch her when she falls, but is she willing to make the leap forward?
 
@h0llywood dang its been forever.
 
she was slipping away, her heart beat decreasing incrementally, her skin growing paler and weaker everyday. less words were spoken as the day stretched out and her naps grew frequent. on a cold october night, her body lay numbly on the hospital bed, almost lifeless. the room was echoing silence and the beeping of the machines keeping her alive. " mom. . " madison muttered by her mother's bed side. there was no sign of movement. her stone eyed gaze locked on her mother's chest, praying for an up and down gesture. but nothing. " mom? " her voice was soft and hopeless. no respond. " momma. " this time her voice was more stern and louder. a slight nudge to her arm, still nothing. the machine beside her lost the beep & shot out one constant beeeeeeeeep. that was it, madison knew but could not allow for her heart to believe it. right before she could do anything else, madison's eyes shot open. students around her were hurriedly gathering their things and spewing out of the door in a rush. slowly, the brunette sat up and realizing it was a dream, more like a nightmare that rehashed the past. shaking her drowsy head, madison pushed herself out of her seat and tossed her notebook into her arms, sauntering out of the classroom. still shaken from the dream, everything around her moved slowly, all conversations were mixed together, making it impossible for her to pick up a word or too. though it happened three years ago, the memory remains constant and locked in her memory, like it happened the day before. madison watched her mother lose the battle to cancer. she watched her mother take her last breath, the sound still echoes in her ears, the aching of her heart continues to be a daily battle. . for madison, there was no worse matter on the planet than growing close to a person and losing them. ever since then, getting into mads' heart became almost impossible, and all for a reason. so naturally it was intimidating for her when justin came into her life.
 

holy this sucks. &&idk how long you wanted it to be soooo. . whenever you do reply, i'll just base the length off of that.